Tuesday, April 24, 2012
call to action... description of my future plans to start my pseudo "doomsday cult". and plans for my underground bunker.
HOLY SHIT.... Since I have returned and have been staying at Mom's house, with cable, I am AMAZED at the INSANE AMOUNT OF DOOMSDAY SHOWS ON TELEVISON.... One of the best, on the History Channel, is called "Preppers" (the new name for people prepping for the end of the world)... It profiled one particular elderly genius that purchaced like 32 schoolbuses and cut them up and buried them eighteen feet underground and has made a bunker that can hold up to like 500 people comfortably, for a year, without EVER having to come up.... (air filtration systems, etc. CRAZY SHIT YOU'D NEVER THINK OF). He's on his way to heaven, old as hell, but he built it to HELP PEOPLE.... FASCINATING.... There are soooo many like him too.... I'm about to purchace a small camper which I will do the same with, but I originally just wanted the camper.... I really do wanna see the end of the world.... Not from underground either.... BUT if you wanna help me with this... or wanna be bunkered up in a 13 ft. "canned ham" underground trailer.... please contact me.... haha... this thing is sooo awesome... Also I need a place in Chicago to park it for a few months.... Before I find a place to start digging.... Oh and this isn't a crock... I found this amazing thing on CL BEFORE I LEFT CALI, and am going to check it out and purchace it for an amazingly cheap price in the next few days.... I just need a place to park it while I prep it.... and not on the street cuz it's not safe. it's small. 13 ft. but if I follow this fellow's plan who I plan to contact, it could become bigger and bigger.... and would fucking rule to have a "secret" underground bunker... If I can keep my big stupid mouth shut about it.... But yea... I need to recruit now... And I need people who know about air filtration especially.... I've done much research about gas masks, food, water, preservation, alternative energy, etc. But yea I need this for the "doomsday cult" I'm organizing as well.... Also looking for an educated, well spoken, non manipulative, HOTTT, fervant, and convincing preacher as well... All wingnuts and otherwise welcome to join me, but I need someone with a semblance of "sanity" for a preacher... I'm not it... And no matter what you think, it will be nonviolent, and there will be no "mass suicide" intended, unfortunately.... but if you do wanna kill yourself, you can... I understand....
Monday, April 23, 2012
WHY I CAN'T STAY WITH THE 'RENTS. DAD'S DEAD BUT MOM IS DRIVING ME MAD. I LOVE YOU MOM. BUT WRITING A LETTER IS A PERFECTLY NORMAL THING TO DO...
Mom is BEGINNING to drive me nuts.... Today my dolls came in the mail and one soap bottle emptied, so she HOSED THEM OFF!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S FUCKING SOAP!!!!!!!! HOSED THEM!!!!!!!!!. Kept it cool for that one... But THEN While she's still up and watching a movie, I proceeded to print out probably one of the most important letters I've ever written (to the old ppl that I LIVED IN HELL WITH) it's on my blog... and it's pretty atrocious.... but she get's mad and starts yelling about having to sleep..... I said... I'm just printing out something before you go to sleep.... She then gives me the "well you don't have to get up in the morning" speech which I've heard a BILLION TIMES AD NAUSEUM.... and I have YET to wake her ONCE since I've been here.... I was printing a letter and then that's it.... back in my room.... Then she says to me... WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING ANYHOW.... ALL ANYONE'S GOING TO DO IS READ THAT AND THROW IT OUT... And I'm like I highly doubt it... Would you like to read it mom... completely discounting the fuckinng horrorshow I went through living there.... Then she looks at me as if I TOTALLY LOST IT... LEAVES... comes back in.... I say excuse me, but do you know the purpose of writing a letter... she says I'VE NEVER WRITTEN A LETTER... I say "you've never written a letter". hmmm.... alright.... well I am sorry for you but I usually do communicate via the INTERNET but this time it needs to be written and sent.... Sorry the idea of writing a letter is so FOREIGN AND INSANE to you... but the post office exists for a reason... Letters go back and forth everyday... (in fact she did write me a letter for Christmas... like about ten words, but still very nice).... but then she starts crying in the other room.... I was like shaking with anger... She tells me YOU NEED TO GET OVER THIS.... I start crying saying.... I've been home for LESS THAN A WEEK!!!!!! YOU WEREN'T THERE.... YOU BAILED ME OUT OF JAIL... THANK YOU.... THANKS FOR LETTING ME STAY HERE.... BUT THIS LETTER IS MY WAY OF GETTING THROUGH IT AND IF YOU EXPECT ME TO RETURN "fine" YOU ARE CRAZY.... I already secured an apartment 3 doors down from my old one before I got here... A single room occupancy with a bunch of DRUNK MEXICANS which is EXACTLY WHERE I WANT TO BE.... MY LANDLORD HAS ONE TOOTH (again all this is on my blog). was gonna stay at Mortville and did this weekend.... and it's a shame cuz she lives in Roselle half a mile away from a roller rink I went to as a kid and has always looked abandoned, but is in fact open on the weekends, 3 adult bookstores, 3 "massage" parlours, 2 strip clubs, 2 tattoo shops... It's fucking great.... but I can't take it anymore.... really what the fuck?. I'm angry.... I got a really nice welcome back to Chicago.... even saw Vanessa and Ossian, and like EVERYONE except you... and a few other people that I hardly ever see.... but we NEED TO HANG OUT.... EEEW... and I keep running into ppl in the burbs from my jr. high/high school/grammar school either... AND ALSO THE BIGGEST FUCKUPS LIKE ME... DRUG ADDICTS AND THE LIKE.... well former ones.... WHO ARE MARRIED WITH BABIES.... and CONGRADULATIONS TO THEM.... BUT it personally is freaking me out and that's why I stay in my bubble in Pilsen with the rest of the unmarriable.... (even tho I know you have a wife, but you're different). So I have keys for this weekend, but I don't know if I can make it close to then here... I love my mother, but she has started to drive me nuts and said the most hurtful things to me tonite.... and justifies it by "I have done so much for you" and she has done a TON but just because you've helped someone does not mean that you can treat them like shit.... WHICH IS WHY I GOT MY OWN FUCKING PLACE CUZ I WANT NO ONE HOLDING IT OVER MY FUCKING HEAD AS TO "OH I'M LETTING YOU STAY HERE.... BLAH BLAH.... I'VE been through enough of that in California, culminating with getting my head slammed into a concrete wall on the last night and my ear bleeding and my heart beating in my head for hours and hours and an escape from that house in which I had to hide until I found my fucking cat who wanders all over the neighborhood and got the fuck out.... My mother and the residents of that house (again reference the letter on the blog) are soooo lucky I did not do something unspeakable, except wage a noise war on them the last night I was there.... which ruled and was stopped by my partner.... longer story...
Friday, April 20, 2012
R.I.P. DADDY. 4-20. 3 year anniversary since the world lost an AMAZING man.
R.I.P. THOMAS MCCARVILLE. 4-20... You died three years ago... You have been and remain a constant influence in my life... I really have always wanted to memorialize you with a tattoo, but I know how much you hated my tattoos... I love you sooo Much. He died in a nursing home that he was FORCED to be in after wanting his gun near him and a hospice worker moving it and him getting angry and being too helpless to get out of his chair, he DEMANDED it, and she called the cops... Dad, being the intelligent and darkly humourous person he was told the police when they came that SHE in fact had a gun, and the woman was tackled and put in a police car for 45 minutes until she could explain the actual story. In the Nursing home, Dad was drugged and ABUSED for three months until he died weighing a mere 120 pounds... Daddy, I love you forever... Thank you for bailing me out of Jail in California from beyond the grave... I know you are watching over me. Yes, I just became aware that the $1500 that my mother had supplied to get me out of the women's prison I was in in California for Domestic Violence (another joke and TRAVESTY OF JUSTICE) Dublin, Pleasontin (sp?)... I was arrested in March, but my mother began to recieve a suppliment starting Jan. This year (after she turned 65) from social security, a "survivor benifit", hah... for "surviving" the marraige to my father?. Idk... They had been divorced for twenty years before he passed... Her first check for $1,500 exactly came in March... I had to call her to bail me out and knew that she did not have that kind of money and hoped she could come up with it easily... It came too easily and I really wondered why and how... She then told me the other day the story... It was easy b/c of the suppliment she recieved as a result of my father's passage... This is really odd... No one knows why or how the suppliment came to be, or why she recieved it... But the first one was received the MONTH I needed it, and as a result of my father. When arrested, I called upon my dead father for help... He supplied it... When I was in jail the guard said "SOMEONE MUST LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN BAILED OUT". I know my mother does and I do not discount her role in this b/c I know she would have done whatever she had to to get the money.... but she didn't have to because of what she had received THAT EXACT MONTH for the EXACT AMOUNT 3 years AFTER MY FATHER'S PASSAGE, as a result of his passage.... Someone must love me?. I know you are somewhere Dad, and I will always love you. I know you are watching over me, but ahem, hopefully not at certain times... C'mon... I know we have a weird relationship, but like some things, it would just be weird to see that you were watching me.... I miss you and think about you daily and still am unable to go into a Value City ever because of our many misadventures there... Disney World as well... Even the water park is not the same without you... Your anger, intelligence, and ability to constantly survive and command respect in Every situation, ability to drink enough alcohol to kill three men and not even pass out, sheer stubborness, bizarre off color dark as hell sense of humour, and finally unreal fearlessness and ability to tell ANYONE AT ANYTIME TO FUCK OFF and to always stick to your beliefs are just a few of your superhuman qualities that I try to eminate and you have instilled in me and you continue and always have been a constant hero and ROLE MODEL for me... I hope you are well interred in the Veteran's Cemetary, another one of your amazing accomplishments, and whether or not it was intentional your final FUCK YOU to your time in the military and a tribute to your cunning ability to fuck with the system.... I love you dearly and miss you daily... Thank you sooo much for bailing me out of jail.... I try to live in your memory as much as I can... I hope you're proud of me!. I'll try not to get anymore tattoo's!. I dedicate much of my life to you, weather that is a good or bad thing... I MISS U DADDY... I know you are somewhere fucking shit up though...
Love,
Your "Little Princess" Meg.
R.I.P. THOMAS MCCARVILLE. "the wolf".
8-22-35 to 4-20-09... and on and on and on and on....
MIND CONTROL AND ROSEANNE BARR AND "ROSEANNE" IN GENERAL.
It's been a long time... too long... I can tell you do your fair share of internet ranting because of your eloquence and fervor... i suggest you write more... Do you have a blog?. Your sheer anger alone and the fact that you are one of my few friends from the burbs who are NOT in a long term relationship or HAVE A HIGH PAYING STEADY JOB (maybe you do, but you hate it it sounds like) or are eech... (no offense to the wonderful parents and happily married people I knew in High School, I do wish you the best, just obviously weirdly not jealous, but just can't understand it still... I feel like I'm still in high school, and I am well aware I act like I am still five years old). I digress. Jim... on the subject of you and a woman... I have long told you you resembled the Great JOHN GOODMAN, which has always been, and I am confused as to wheather or not you know this, the highest of compliments, because I LOVE that man, his role in THE BIG LEBOWSKI was like the best thing ever, only SECOND TO ROSEANNE, WHICH REMAINS TO BE ONE OF THE BEST SHOWS ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH... EVER... NUFF SAID... John Goodman was FAT during that time... I mean the show WAS ABOUT FAT ASSES and I think they were FORCE FEEDING ROSEANNE AND GOODMAN like fois gras ducks or whatever, BUT That reference had nothing to do with obesity... rather admiration... your romance with narcotics mirrored mine and I'm sure we have many stories to share and that's all I will say on this public forum... And IT NEVER DOES END DOES IT?. (although I do smoke e cigs now, and I haven't injected in seven years... but still nearly cum when my blood is drawn... good thing the junk in Chicago sux I heard... I DON'T WANNA KNOW... I'm almost completely off of what started as a 600 mg. dose of methadone a day... enough to kill two full grown men... BUT TO ADDRESS YOUR PROBLEMS WITH WOMEN, and your resemblence to John Goodman... You sir, deserve NOTHING but the most AMAZING FORCE OF LIFE for a partner... She is out there, and you will find her... You deserve nothing less than ROSEANNE BARR (WAIT WAIT... JUST LET ME FINISH) who remains one of my female idols from CHILDHOOD TO THIS DAY... SHE MANAGED TO SINGLEHANDELDLY PIONEER AND MAKE A SHOW ABOUT FATASSES LIVING IN THE BURBS A NUMBER ONE SHOW FOR CLOSE TO TEN YEARS UNTIL (and I HONESTLY BELIEVE THIS IS A CONSPIRACY... ALSO WAIT...) and I don't know if you are familiar with any of the show but I know the WHOLE RUN... until the plot changed and the ROSEANNE FAMILY won the lottery and got thin and Dan, John Goodman's Character, had a heart attack and died... After they stopped farming the main actors and force feeding them and weight loss came in... THE SHOW SUCKED AND WAS OFF THE AIR... ROSEANNE BARR... LOOK HER UP ON YOUTUBE... REMAINS TO ONE OF THE MOST FEARLESS INTELLIGENT FEMALE FORCES OF NATURE TO DATE.... CHECK IT OUT ON YOUTUBE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME.... SHE IS A CONSPIRACY THEORIST, who speaks out against THE ABUSE AND MIND CONTROL SHE SUFFERED at various wingnut (and I say that self identifying as a wingnut) conventions across the country)..... SHE IS FEARLESS... Whatever you want to call them.... the powers that be, the illuminatis, the NWO, reptilian shapeshifters, the skull and bones, secret societies, etc. had a hold of her.... she was farmed as a child... there is a history of this and it's happening right now... (youtube cathy o'brian and watch her speak, a close friend of ROSEANNE BARR), I will not go on about this particularly distubing and mostly unknown truth about the farming and subsequent mind control and continued mk ultra experiments inflicted on infants from birth that the government takes from mothers that put their babies up for adoption or buy or farm from birth, but we can talk more about this... Disney code has a lot to do with it... childhood trauma, MPD (multiple personality disorder or dissociative personality disorder) is caused by severe childhood trauma in which the brain compartmentalizes itself into different pieces and they can only be brought out by different triggers... the triggers being certain words, sounds, etc. DISNEY WAS A NAZI, and we stole the technology from the nazis after ww2, and Joseph Mingels the MAD NAZI SCIENTIST had been experimenting with halocaust victims for years with this, but after America beat Germany in WWII, we took that and (think about it) Disney was rising to fame right then and used its code on the children they inflicted unspeakable torture on and continue to, as well as the subliminal messages in Disney movies, Disneyland, and Disney World (the "happiest place on earth" and one of my favorite places of all time honestly) but a place that is chocked full of surveillance, subliminal messages, secret identities, and the like... I am getting off on a tangent here and I think you may know yourself a bit about this particular "conspiracy theory" but you sound like you have researched the illuminatis by the way you speak and sorry to spring all this wingnut shit on you, but it IS THE TRUTH... It's going on today as well of course.... ANY DISNEY STAR, more recently Britney Spears (who was sold by her trashy parents), and Hannah Montanna/Miley Cyrus who ACKNOWLEDGES the MPD she has and even more recent ones than that ZACK/CODY, it gets really fucking weird... I try not to pay attention to those shows, but some early mornings the television will be on and I'll catch them and be like HOLY SHIT, MIND CONTROL, DISNEY.... happening in the rap industry... oh god... all over... could go on and on... but If you don't and want to know, youtube Cathy O'brian, and then ROSEANNE BARR recently.... She is sooo much of a "wackjob" right now that TLC I think did a reality show on her called "Roseanne's Nuts". A parody on the fact that she is now a recluse who has her own farm where one thing she harvests is nuts, but obviously making a mockery of the fact that she now will speak out against the trauma she suffered as a child and the mind control inflicted by her... The series is now off the air. I tried to watch it for like 10 minutes once... was unwatchable... No DISNEY CHARM... But before I went on my wingnut apocolaptic rant about mind control, and that's just such a sliver of the whole picture, I said you deserved nothing less than ROSEANNE BARR. AND THAT MY FRIEND IS A GREAT COMPLIMENT COMING FROM ME AS SHE IS A GENIUS AND ONE OF THE GREATEST FEMALES IN EXISTANCE TODAY... PLUS SHE'S NOT FAT ANYMORE.... And I know fat chicks suck, so like I meant a SKINNY ROSEANNE, NOT FOIS GRAS FORCE FED, but a wackjob of a lady who is intelligent and fearless who you deserve and you will get... I have forever appreciated the eloquent comments you have left on my fbook page, and am excited that you follow me... Feel free to call me anytime, (510) 712-8481. I will be living in Pilsen and you are always welcome, although my ceiling is only 6 feet, and you may have to crowch... now that I am back, I am systematically contacting all of my beloveds since I have had prison time, mental hospital time, and insane oakland basement insanity time to reflect on who are the REAL people I SHOULD be talking to and who is worthless but I will remain on a superficial level with.... Please keep in contact... I also have an art residence with a bunch of Autistic Savants at the Chicago Cultural Center across the street from Millenium Park (creepy huh?) where I make fucked up dolls, and it's the greatest thing ever, and a pending book deal with feralhouse.com check that website if you want to find out the MOST INTERESTING SHIT EVER.... I'm not lying.... I know you've been reading tidbits of my life cuz you chime in now and then, so I'm totally not making this up, but yea... YOU'LL DO GOOD... YOU DESERVE SKINNY ROSEANNE!!!!. Sorry to be out of contact for so long and say Hi to Joe Kuczma (?) for me as I think you are still in contact with him and he is also one of my favorites.....
XOXO.
MEG.
"CALL ME WOMYN ONCE... SHAME ON ME... CALL ME WOMYN TWICE, AND YOU DESERVE A HOLLOW BULLET TO THE COLON....
. If you do, in fact like my writing.... this one's for you, but not out of like hatred like my usual rants FOR YOU... RATHER THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE.... BUT FOR MY HATRED OF THE ELIMIATION OF THE "E" OR "MAN" IN THE WORD WOMAN.... which, and you were mostly right in pegging me as someone who might not self identify as a woman... I really don't like it, or I hate being called MA'AM... It makes me feel old or like a slave dirver... I'd rather be called "MASSA MEG". oh wait please don't spell womyn with a y when referring to me, I hate that, you can call me a bulldyke if you wish, only addendum.... just cuz there are so many "womyn" that annoy the living goddamned dinasoured constipated stuck in my colon for years b/c of narcotic abuse shit out of me and I have hated that word for ages.... SO WHAT IF WOMAN HAS MAN IN IT???. its a fucking word... bulldyke is better though... I have a problem self identifying as anything and even though it was pointed out to me that I am not a "bull" b/c I am not a big girl unfortunately, and I like cock, but that does not stop me from being a "dyke" "bulldyke" is a word that I learned from my father at an early age in order to explain my mother's best moustached obese lesbian friend) but that's just me.... with that word.... Sorry to me it's like someone calling me jesus I don't know but WOMYN is a bad word for me.... almost like racist (the only racial slur for white people I've realized).... but (sorry) I think I may prefer racists (of any race) to "womyn" and I write this mostly to address my hatred of the word... you had no idea... not to blame... and I can (unfortunately) understand why you might just maybe take me for a man hating feminist who hates the fact that "man" is in their gender but, although I hate males, I consider myself an equal oppurtunity hater, and hate females just as much, maybe a bit less right now cuz of certain circumstances, but it'll be equal soon enough.... Some of the best people I've met have been misogynists, including female identifying misogynists....
and my addendum to this is not addressed to you, rather to people that use the word "womyn" in general... but yea please call me "bulldyke" from now on... If you do, in fact like my writing.... this one's for you, but not out of like hatred like my usual rants FOR YOU... RATHER THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE.... BUT FOR MY HATRED OF THE ELIMIATION OF THE "E" OR "MAN" IN THE WORD WOMAN.... which, and you were mostly right in pegging me as someone who might not self identify as a woman... I really don't like it, or I hate being called MA'AM... It makes me feel old or like a slave dirver... I'd rather be called "MASSA MEG". oh wait please don't spell womyn with a y when referring to me, I hate that, you can call me a bulldyke if you wish, only addendum.... just cuz there are so many "womyn" that annoy the living goddamned dinasoured constipated stuck in my colon for years b/c of narcotic abuse shit out of me and I have hated that word for ages.... SO WHAT IF WOMAN HAS MAN IN IT???. its a fucking word... bulldyke is better though... I have a problem self identifying as anything and even though it was pointed out to me that I am not a "bull" b/c I am not a big girl unfortunately, and I like cock, but that does not stop me from being a "dyke" "bulldyke" is a word that I learned from my father at an early age in order to explain my mother's best moustached obese lesbian friend) but that's just me.... with that word.... Sorry to me it's like someone calling me jesus I don't know but WOMYN is a bad word for me.... almost like racist (the only racial slur for white people I've realized).... but (sorry) I think I may prefer racists (of any race) to "womyn" and I write this mostly to address my hatred of the word... you had no idea... not to blame... and I can (unfortunately) understand why you might just maybe take me for a man hating feminist who hates the fact that "man" is in their gender but, although I hate males, I consider myself an equal oppurtunity hater, and hate females just as much, maybe a bit less right now cuz of certain circumstances, but it'll be equal soon enough.... Some of the best people I've met have been misogynists, including female identifying misogynists.... and again excuse the rant to your extremely undeserved awesome comment you have dropped on my page, but I can't stop ranting, or writing, and consider it 5 months of trauma (don't mean to sound like a victim, or worse survivor) unleashed out onto unfortunate readers of this page and my blog.... BUT TO YOU.... THANK YOU SOOO MUCH.... same to you!!!. feel free to reach out whenever. You have a friend for life (unfortunately or not)... but to the rest of you... please don't go around offending us poor souls by removing the "e" from our gender, unless we self identify as that. hahahaaa... and I can't believe I'd ever go on a rant about self gender identity because I really don't care if someone is he she it animal vegatible or mineral, straight, gay, bi, queer, independant, necrophiliac, nambla (I don't like people fucking children though), bestial (again don't approve of the rape of animals, but if they're willing, PLAY BALL... I KNOW SEVERAL WOMEN AND WOMYN WHO FUCK THEIR DOGS!!!!. U GO GALZ!)... PLUS I hear dolphin sex is AMAZING... Find me a willing dolphin male and ITS ON... uhmm.... god I could go on about this gender thing forever.... It's ultimately that I don't care what gender a person is and who the person is inside (aaaw, I know too sweet) and honestly it is sometimes arrogant and makes me angry when I get a pronoun wrong or sad when someone gets hurt (again I have a HEART FUCK OFF) b/c I get their pronoun wrong when I can hardly remember very good friends of mine's names.... and if you have changed your gender more than twice and you are not or were not formally Duwayne Slieghtweight (sorry to call you out but this is a compliment b/c you are the most humble person ever and have charmed me to death, and are one of the only ones I can think of who has changed their pronoun multiple times, and I love your mass emails about it...) I just might accidentally refer to you as the wrong pronoun and for the most part I'm sorry. But yea, god... But I have long hated WOMYN since I was a small child and I honestly told my parents to stop calling me their little girl, and I knew I was not a boy, so made them call me their "little guy" so I grew up with some serious gender issues... And ironically enough, because I make them now, I refused to play with dolls, I liked he-mans, and some boy's toys, but mostly stuffed animals, of which I owned thousands of and hoarded and my mother unfortunately systematically got rid of under my nose until I was 26, despite my sincere promises that I would one day remove them and use them again, and would have by now... and the prior addendum, and I will say is not addressed to anyone in particular rather something that seeing the word "womyn" spurred in me... years of hatred of that word and as I will state again thank you so much for your consideration and I definately understand why you would think I was a person that wanted "man" eliminated from my gender identitiy.... but in my opinion this whole gender identity thing has become so out of fucking control that it's leading to a single enuch, barbie doll genatalia identification of a human being, because like I previously stated there are becoming waaaay to many to keep track of.... and EUNICH is just fine for me... but I prefer "bulldyke".
Also I do hate being called a "woMAN" just because it makes me feel old... I am old... but I still don't feel like a WOMAN... I don't knit, take candle baths, or like flowers (actually I do like flowers), I don't CRY, I'M NOT BAREFOOT, I'M NOT PREGNANT, I DON'T COOK, I DON'T MAKE CAKE, WEAR APRONS, DREAM ABOUT MARRAIGE, GO SHOPPING FOR MY WEDDING GOWN, HAVE A CHILD, HAVE A MINIVAN, HAVE A SHIRT THAT SAYS MY PET WALKS ALL OVER ME (although I wish I did), AM A NAGGING BITCH (umm.. that's a lie), CLEAN THE HOUSE, SHAVE MY ARMPITS, DOUCHE, GO TO THE "BEAUTY PARLOR" (not to be confused with the "barber shop" which I also wish I hung out at daily), DIET, GET PLASTIC SURGERY (yet), BUY HYGENE PRODUCTS, EAT SALADS, HATE SPORTS (yes I do), REMAIN SILENT, DON'T PROTEST, AM FAT, STUPID, ATTENDED A SORORITY, HAVE LOW SELF WORTH, NEED MEN TO GIVE ME SELF WORTH, NEED A BOYFRIEND/HUSBAND/PARTNER, and that is not what a WOMAN is to me, but rather what I thought it was growing up for a long time... When it was popularized in the eighties that then Female Scream Queen Jamie Lee Curtis was actually born a Hermaphrodite or I was told so by my father and then told that I, also was born with a penis and they had it cut off when I was born because my vagina was more prevalant, and then that was told to me over and over and over I got confused... and still obviously am... I didn't like women. I never thought my mom was... My mom was someone I called IGOR From the planet "V-NECK T-SHIRT" (yea kids are brilliant, I only wish I remembered more of my childhood), women did the aforementioned to me and I wanted nothing to do with it... we never had a dog, so I never tried the peanut butter trick, so I never got into dogfucking, which was another thing that was enforced in my mind that WOMEN did by my father... Women were all these things.... ummm... no.... WOMYN ARE ALL THESE THINGS.... FUCK WOMYN.... YEA actually I said I don't care what you identify as, but I correct myself, IF YOU IDENTIFY AS A "WOMYN" uhmmm.... YEA YOU ARE EVERYTHING TERRIBLE TO ME.... and I refuse to recognize that as a spelling for a word....
Oh yea and while I'm at it, I really don't like be called a woman, but I HATE being called maam.... "Woman" makes me feel old.... MAAM makes me feel as if a gay male stewardess is talking to me (which just happened), I am about to die, or am a slave driver.... It's simliar to being called MASSA MEG, which I would not mind nearly as much.... or MINE FURHER.... WOMYN.... YEA PLEASE DON'T SAY IT AROUND ME.... I TRY my hardest to respect people's gender identities, if you don't know and it's a mistake, and you call me it, it's fine... Just don't do it again unless you want to piss me off... So now, if you have read this far, or just caught this tidbit, YOU CAN GET TO ME... CALL ME A WOMYN.... fully knowing the way I feel about it... this person was just trying to be respectful and that is beyond fine... It's flattering... But, like they say "CALL ME WOMYN ONCE, SHAME ON ME, CALL ME WOMYN TWICE AND YOU WILL GET A HOLLOW BULLET TO THE COLON". I think Ben Franklin said that or something.....
Thursday, April 19, 2012
haha... thread from fbook after someone uttered the phrase "oakland rules" on my page.
- Friends with Kurt Kiesel and 29 othersOakland rules.16 hours ago · ·
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Meg Mccarville GO TO HELL!!!!!. OOPS. you are already in it... i honestlyl have never ever ever done the petty stupid task of defriending a single person on this stupid social network but your idiotic dogshit ignorant comment makes me want to rip your fucking ugly face out and drown you in my dead father's cholostomy bag.... JENN DUNGEN.... YOU ARE FACEBOOK DEAD TO ME.... AND ANYONE ELSE WHO PRAISES OAKLAND WILL SUFFER THE SAME FATE.... GOD I honestly WISH you were right in front of me right now and I had my machete and, well the cholostomy bags are in my closet... safe and sound, and waiting... and so am I..... STUPID BITCH!!!!!!!!!! DIE!!!!!!. GO PLANT A TREE, HELP THE NEIGHBORHOOD, BE SCARED OF BEING WHITE, OCCUPY SOMETHING STUPID, PRETEND YOU KNOW HOW TO RIOT, COMPLAIN ABOUT THE POLICE, AND THEN CUT YOURSELF INTO SEVERAL FUCKING PIECES AND RECYCLE IT INTO THE EIGHTEEN GARBAGE CANS THEY FORCE YOU TO USE AND PAY FOR AND THEN MOVE TO SAN FRANSISCO WHERE YOU BELONG YOU CHEAP WHITEBREAD BITCH..... I HOPE THE COPS SHOOT YOU IN THE NEXT TEN MINUTES.... AND THEN SOME HARDCORE ASS BITCHES THAT KNOW ABOUT LIVING IN OAKLAND AND WOULD NEVER SAY SOMETHING AS IGNORANT AS "oakland rules (i'm dumb and privalidged)" RUN A TRAIN ON YOUR DEAD ROTTING CORPSE IN PRISON.... DEFRIENDED!!!!!!!!!15 hours ago · · 5- Meg Mccarville ANYONE ELSE ON THIS SOCIAL NETWORK GOT SOMETHING GOOD TO SAY ABOUT OAKLAND????. YEA I THOUGHT SO....
- Meg Mccarville Actually, there IS this really cool spot on 30th and west where... OH NEVERMIND.... DEFRIENDED.... WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU ANYWAY???.15 hours ago · · 1
Jen DunjenI'm not sure you were really here long enough to get a feel for Oakland overall. You were probably hanging with the totally wrong people from what I saw from your posts. FYI, I know you from plenty of noise shows in Chicago. Chicago is also great and I still miss it so go enjoy it and stop yelling on FB.
Ruth R. Hustle Oppenheim-Rothschild wait hold on are you saying you're living in an sro in CHICAGO?? did you make it back??- Meg Mccarville yea... Ruth... I'm right like half a block from where i lived before... I was going to continue my story before I was so rudely interrupted by an ignorant comment.... shot to the heart.... sorry... I'LL SEE YOU SOON!!!!. I'M SO HAPPY TO BE BACK!!!!!.
- Jen DunjenI'll look you up the next time I'm in Chicago. You can bring the stinky colostomy bags. It all sounds very intriguing.14 hours ago · · 1
- Meg Mccarville No... Jen... honestly.... I don't care... and I don't understand why people can't understand SARCASM.... I don't have a bunch of my dead father's cholostomy bags in my closet... unfortunately... my father did not ever need a cholostomy.... unfortunately.... err... what?. umm.. yea. he had a colon. it's cool. you're just dumb.i don't like dumb comments. that's it. like say something not dumb please. like why does "oakland rule"?. say something not dumg... i dare you...
- Meg Mccarville it would be... i'm sorry to exaggerate about that... haha. it would be exciting... i wish...
- Meg Mccarville I can't ever leave. Yea Ruth.. You, Janice, and a handful of others....
- Meg Mccarville I'm so sorry I left... I kissed the ground when I got to Midway and apologized to Chicago... then got an apartment the next day...
- Meg Mccarville i was with my mom today checking out this apartment in Pilsen and saw Jail on the street and I honestly had to like pace myself so I did not look like a total freak and start crying and freaking out seeing someone I knew and loved in Chicago. I think I kept it cool enough...14 hours ago · · 1
- Ruth R. Hustle Oppenheim-Rothschild Less and less all the time but the good ones always come back sooner or later. I'll totally see you/vanessa this weekend. And yeah, fuck oakland + glad you're back but whatevs, give them a break, we all get defensive about "our" city etc.
- Meg Mccarville I might lose my shit on Saturday though. It might be too much... I might have a seizure.
- Meg Mccarville DUDE for the record... I was kidding about that rant. I really went through some serious shit in Oakland though which I have yet to address with my mentality... It's way too new... I am so angry with what happened to me in that town (and it's me, not other people, wonderful people, like Vanessa, thrive there) but I love this city sooooooooooooooo much..... And right now I hate especially Oakland and New Orleans and I was in love with both of those towns so if anyone says anything to me about them I might just freak... it's not hard for me right now.... why I am sequestering myself in the suburbs and not staying in the city right now....
- Meg Mccarville I didn't even mean for this facebook shit to happen.... DAMMIT FACEBOOK.... WTF AM I DOING????. I was just writing and then a comment struck a nerve. I'm also in the midst of finally reading the tribune that my mom saved for me about Jeremy Hammond. where he appears on the front page... and trying to wrap my mind all around that.... THAT was one of the reasons I left as well.... I wanted NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT... AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE was doing, but I didn't want to know or be close to it...
- Meg Mccarville so like I should not be on social networking sites at all... even saying that....
- Meg Mccarville I don't even know what happened to him.... He was on the cover o the tribune and then disappeared....
- Meg Mccarville ACTUALLY NO WAAIT WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING!!!!!!!!. MY FACEBOOK PAGE..... MY FUCKING RULES..... NO PRAISING OAKLAND!!!!!!!!! EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......
I AM FURHER OF HTTP://WWW.FACEBOOK.COM/ MEG.MCCARVILLE - Meg Mccarville YOU PRAISE OAKLAND.... YOU FACE DEAD OLD MAN SHIT. GO DIE IN A GUTTER JEN DUNN.
- Meg Mccarville i wish i could update myself completely but i am now hosting a satanic ritual in your name and wishing bad ju ju onto u...
Minoo Kuru that jenn lady must be totally retarded, why would anyone want you to "stop yelling on fb" ???4 hours ago · · 1
Betty Devoe Darling, you need to write a book about your adventures, seriously. Glad you are back in this fair city. Xoxo- Meg Mccarville I am going to... this is all being saved in my blog... Trust me... I am on my way to getting a PROFESSIONAL THERAPIST A.S.A.P., but the writing as cheezy as it is is therapeutic as hell and keeps me from doing anything further than attacking people by written words and the interweb.... Yea... Sorry to the folks that don't like me, but I really feel at home here, and I don't want to leave ever. Unless to another country.... And it is great to hear anyone, but also especially familiar constant Chicago staples like you and Minoo are still here and supportive.about an hour ago · · 1
- Meg Mccarville Oh wait... I keep getting these moments of unclarity... addendum... I am NOT sorry to the people that don't like me here... but I am here to stay... I'm not starting anything... rather I actually hate this shit... it's just fuel for the fire... I just want people to CHILLLLL OUT!!!!. (I know, ironic coming from me).
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